Some things are not a disaster.
- The conference call company, cocking up our Board teleconference, royally, this morning, was frustrating – it wasn’t a disaster.
- Me printing ‘January’ instead of February on letters for our Chair to sign, was stupid – it wasn’t a disaster.
- The car being delayed and the poor customer service I received when I tried to find out what was going on, was infuriating – but not a disaster.
So why does my monkey mind go ‘whirrrrrr’ and tell me that it is so? Huh?
There was a category 5 cyclone smack bang over Queensland overnight, absolutely shredding the State. QLD was just starting to get over the floods of January, when it was hit by a little cyclone last weekend, to be hit by Yasi, the biggest storm to hit Australia last night. That is a disaster.
I really tried to focus on my breathing this morning. But my mind, my ego, was rattling away 19 to the dozen. I tried to concentrate on This Breath. In and Out. Eckhart Tolle in Stillness Speaks:
It has been said: wherever you go, there you are. In other words: you are here. Always. Is it so hard to accept that?
I know when I struggle to calm my mind, I struggle to be patient with others. I struggle to give space to my thoughts. I know when I’m calmer, I can hear destructive thoughts as they happen and can dismiss them. Today has been a struggle for many reasons. But, it hasn’t been a disaster. I do remind myself of watching a documentary about a paediatric hospital and a consultant saying ‘You’ve not had a bad day until you’ve told a parent their child has died.’ It helps keep my life in perspective. In the grand scheme of things, I’ve not had a bad day today. And only my thoughts rattling away, forcing my mind to go over and over what I did or didn’t do, just kept my frustration going.
I’m going for a swim in the morning. I’ve got the car back. My pregnancy is going well. I’ve spoken to my Mum. Today was a blip on the horizon of what normally is a very evened keeled life. Today highlighted that my TLC for me needs some work. I should be grateful, not frustrated. A few years ago, I wouldn’t have recognised it.